Hallmark, Mary Engelbreit, & Me

For the past two days, I've been living inside my own Hallmark movie. It follows their very successful formula. One that never varies. Why should it. Flashback to Carol Reigh's Open Barn. Summer. I bought the most beautiful scarf. A Bonnie Heinrich scarf. Special. Very. Baby alpaca. First shearing. White. With a hint--not overdone--of added shimmer. Crocheted. A stunner.

It was not just another beautiful scarf. It was special to me. I wore it night and day throughout my recent skin cancer. Squamish cell carcenoma. Two surgeries. Kept me warm. Made me feel safe. My Linus blanket.

Lost it. No clue where or how. If I had, it would be found. And for two days I have been beyond upset. With myself. Almost OCD over it. See Hallmark's pattern. The Black Beauty story, any good story, modernized. Sort of. Starts wonderful. Slips into sadness, conflict. Any kind will do. Then everything reverts to happy endings. Full circle.

So here I am. Even my happy song and my wonderfully sympathetic cats (yes, they know something's amiss) are not pulling me back to ever after.

Life Lesson: what I've learned. Life is a Hallmark movie, but we need to script our own endings. And that's what I'm doing right now. Catharsis. Getting beyond, yes, I know, a scarf. Life is more important. Beating cancer is more important. Helping others. And my list is endless of what is more important. In a word: everything.

So I'm picturing a Mary Engelbreit greeting card I had years ago that said, "Get over it." And I am.

And I refuse in the future to get so bent out of shape over someTHING so simple like a scarf. Yep.! I'm over it. With this last period.

 

#CountYourBlessings For more about Mary Engelbreit Cards.

LIFESAVING STRATEGY: The "IN-BETWEEN MOMENTS"

We live for the large moments. Vacations. Births. Marriages. The Spectacular. We yearn for The Special. That's life!
But we are memory makers inside the small moments. It's where we really live. Inside the "In-Between Moments." Between cancer and cure, there were even magical moments, some very dark times, and serious struggle. But it's where I really lived. It's what I remember. And.Celebrate.

Of course, I remember Life-Shapers. Game-Changers. But the point: even inside these really momentous high drama memories, and we all have them, different and defining, are those in-betweeners. Where I've been. Live. DefineMe. DefineUs. What defines you?



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LIFESAVING STRATEGY: You Can Go Back (And Maybe You Should)

I love Christmas. Perhaps because Hallmark holiday movies remind us we can go back. Maybe not to everything in real life, but IF we really want retro enough, we not only can go back; maybe we should. As a cancer survivor, I continue to fight to return to who I was, grab with gusto that life I had. Often, it's the small things I want. Like a pony tail flopping in the wind as I run. That matters. Because it defined me. Before. And now I want normal as I knew it. NOT "new normal." The old normal. The me who was and is becoming her again. In this season of happiness and blessings, I celebrate you with incredible gratitude for giving me the strength and courage to endure and prevail. I am here because of YOU! God bless and keep you. Always.

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LIFESAVING STRATEGY: An Army of Friends

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No one survives the journey I took without daily doses of friends caring, liking, commenting. Those moments kept me going. IF there is a place beyond gratitude, it is where I live in everyday moments, over the moon to be alive. Please forgive me if I missed a frequent flyer.

Terri Miller Carlson Tim Childers Meg Blue Griffin Danielle McBride Abernethy Steve Dembo Mike Cichocki Porter Wideman Palmer Teri Conroy Carol Reigh Tabbethia Haubold Yvonne Mulcaster JoAnn Wilchek Basist Hope Herschman Gail Zapf Frank Walsh Dean Shareski Debi Allen Debb Guard Helena DeCaprio DebbGuard Jannita Demian Maritza Wohlberg Sam Adams Bev Vienckowski Julie Lea Stacy Kasse AnnMarie Keenan Donald Csaposs Patricia Bracy Mark J. Perlman Anita Collins Patti Duncan Kathy Otto Kenworthy Ken Brown Melissa Gibbs Betsy Whalen Pat Dewolfe Justin Cunfer Abbie Brown Debbie Lentz Dean Shareski Dean Mantz Anthony B. Corl Paige D Cannon Shelbi Engelmann Michael Susan Mixa Francesco Sorgiovanni Dolores Lynch Marsha Timmerman Donna-marie Dorney Cindy Moser Rebecca OBrien Patti Duncan Rebecca Stoeckel Dean Mantz Susan Gatanis Stella Gatanis Darlene DiRusso Reardon Lysa Gallardo Grant Joyce A. Wilson Christy E. Yerk-Smith Sally German Rucker Catherine Brinson Kate Contento Erin Isaacs Fruits Charlotte Sankey Brad Fountain Kathy Cloer Seibert Elise Sturgeon Caroloy Hawkinson Christine Southard-Lorenzo Christi Moore Rubin Susan Vallar Orach Farmlife - Teri Conroy Sarah Sally German Rucker

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LIFESAVING STRATEGY: Reason to Get Up

EXCEPTIONAL: And she is! Home in 2 weeks!

My husband is almost 89. He still runs his business. An hour drive each way. And he's in good shape. His mantra: you need a reason to get up in the morning.

So true of people during a cancer or illness journey. Even more true in recovery. That's why I have llamas. They are my reason to get up and moving in the morning. After that impetus, despite whatever the weather, I'm up and about. Then I can think about coffee, running, playing with my house pets. Doing farm chores. Going for a drive with my dog to nowhere in particular.

Running social media sites, a website, and 3 blogs do keep me busy, but are not reasons to get moving in the morning. They WERE my salvation during quarantine in the year of recovery. But the impetus to get up and live my life: definitely my llamas. We all need a reason to live our lives inside the moments and not just exist. Do you have yours?

LIFESAVING PRODUCTS: After Cancer

 My newest cosmetic favorite comes from my friend Tabbethia Haubold whose Long Island Livestock CO, aka LILCO's Shepherdess Product Line delivers the richest bath and body products. And they are FABULOUS! I fell in love with her newest scent, Coconut Body Butter. Heavenly.

Rich and thick. Do the Bang Test. Upsidedown the container, after it's open. Bang it on a counter. Product doesn't move. That rich.

When it comes to saving my feet from chemo and winter cracks, nothing beats Tabbethia's body body. I chunk it on, massage it in, and let it work inward while I drink my morning after-shower coffee. Then I put my running socks on. They're a tighter weave and lock that body butter goodness in.

LIL CO Website: http://www.lilivestockco.com/bath-body/

At the end of the day, my feet feel fantastic, and remnants of that rich thick body butter remain. As I crawl into bed for the night, I admit to feeling like a goddess. And then I slip into dreams.

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I admit to being a product junkie when it comes to skin care. So the products I used before cancer and during cancer are still in my product arsenal and I still use them. Just differently. I take a good look at my morning face and go from there. Some people cross train; I cross-use beauty products.

LIFESAVING PRODUCTS: During Cancer

If you can only manage one skin care product, before, during, or after life with cancer, then it would have to be Josie Maron's 100% Pure Argan Oil. It comes in several sizes to accommodate your needs (travel, fitting into your medicine chest, purse size) as a pure oil. And during cancer, as well as before, this is my go-to favorite one product. It works beautifully with other products in my arsenal of hydrating cosmetics, but this one is a winner.

I admit you need to get past the notion of it being an oil. For some people, this would be a game stopper. But truly, this oil works perfectly on all skins, from dry like mine to oily, like one of my friends who finally decided to try it.

But for the purposes of dealing with hydrating during cancer, because your entire body becomes very dry, feet and fingers crack, this oil is the perfect solution, before, during and after cancer treatment. I use it on my entire body. And you have many product options for use. I love the serum and use it before the oil as a base. Love it.

A wise marketer of a smart product, Josie Maron offers online specials, so always check there. And QVC when Josie is on the program, offers many unbeatable bargains. In addition, always check on her website for holiday specials. These are seasonal only offers in limited quantities, so you need to shop early.

I promise you will fall in love with her hand cream. A starter sample kit is a good way to find your favorite fragrance, or perhaps you will just like unscented.

But, and I repeat this, you can do everything for your entire body with just the argan oil. I use it on my face, and then rub the extra on my hair. When I was bald, it was Josie's oil that began my hair regrowth. The only place I needed a more intensive healing treatment was my feet, but that is truly yet another post.

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LIFESAVING PRODUCTS: Before Cancer

Cancer takes a toll. If you are lucky enough to survive, chances are you had an army of support. Made the right choices. Took control of your wellness. And for me, the most challenging part of the journey, you survive recovery. But that is another post. This post focuses on products I used that kept me hydrated, massaged body and soul, made me just feel better about myself as my body was ravaged with toxic chemicals for over two years.

Before cancer, I used Juice Beauty Stem Cellular products. Ironic, since ultimately an autologus stem cell transplant at University of Pennyslvania Perelman Center for Advanced Medicine saved my life.

If you are a younger person, under 50, I recommend you use Juice Beauty Age Defying Green Apple skin care products.

I chose this product line because it targeted mature skin and was like a daily face lift. And it was PURE, ORGANIC. No fuss. No horrible additives. Just pure organic love for your face. By the end of Year 1 with chemotherapy and no results, I reasoned I was a glow-in-the-dark-toxic waste dump. So I wanted everything else in my life to be wholesome, pure, organic.

Although I did not wear makeup for nearly 3 years, except for visits to Philadelphia because I wanted to put a good face on cancer (another post), I used Juice Beauty Stem Cellular Cleansing Oil. Morning and evening. Massage with your fingertips and just enjoy being inside this moment. I kept this pump in the shower, in one of those up high shelves, protected from the onslaught of the shower. I kept a second pump by my sink for evening cleansing. For convenience, so I didn't need to crawl in and out of the shower/tub. I was a fall risk, in and out of the hospital. But that too, is subject for another post.

I admit these products are expensive. Difficult enough to buy one of anything in this line. But they are so worth it.

For hydrating, a must always but especially during cancer, I began with the stem cellular booster serum. It just glides on and is an absolute wonder. Let it dry before applying the next step, always a must for any product line. This is the first step in your immediate face life. Then, I applied stem cellular Instant Eye Lift. Literally, between the skin booster and the eye serum, you have just achieved a face lift. In a minute or two. In the time it takes to air dry. Watch this video, super short, about the eye serum repair and firming lift.

The next product in your skin care morning regimen is the Stem Cellular Anti-Wrinkle Moisturizer. I love to slather this on my skin. I would apply a first layer. Then make my first cup of coffee, then return and add a second. I have very dry skin, made even less moist by chemo, so a second layer was my added protection, added hydration when I returned to it periodically during treatment.

The Stem Cellular Anti-Wrinkle Overnight Cream. A salvation. My favorite. Sometimes I used it as my second layer for my morning routine. But for night time use, its original purpose, I really slathered this and let it soak in. And it will. Of course, before applying this rich luxuriant cream, you should cleanse you skin again. Let it dry, then apply your PM cream.

It sounds like a lot of work, but we are worth it. Of all the products I've used over the years, always searching for the next best thing, I'm here to tell you this is it.

Try it. You will love it.
#savingyourlife #juicebeauty

LIFESAVING STORY. Literally.

I am sharing this post because it is the essence of survival. And it will warm your heart. The take-away message is easy: you kept me warm when I was in a boxcar called cancer. Your messages and "likes" massaged my inner strength. You kept me alive. Inspired me. Encouraged me. You saved my life. Kept me fighting. Warm. Strong. That is the essence of Survival 101. Thank you, Josie Zamolyi Caldwell, for sharing this story, Terri Miller Carlson for being the captain of our army, and Tim Childers for daily injections of just being there. And TO ALL OF YOU. YOU MATTER and YOU MADE A DIFFERENCE.
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THE BACK STORY, shared on Facebook by Michael J. Nadel:

In Crown Heights, there was a Jew, Yankel, who owned a bakery. He survived the camps. He once said, “You know why it is that I’m alive today? I was a kid, just a teenager at the time. We were on the train, in a boxcar, being taken to Auschwitz. Night came and it was freezing, deathly cold, in that boxcar. The Germans would leave the cars on the side of the tracks overnight, sometimes for days on end without any food, and of course, no blankets to keep us warm,” he said. “Sitting next to me was an older Jew – this beloved elderly Jew - from my hometown I recognized, but I had never seen him like this. He was shivering from head to toe, and looked terrible. So I wrapped my arms around him and began rubbing him, to warm him up. I rubbed his arms, his legs, his face, his neck. I begged him to hang on. All night long; I kept the man warm this way. I was tired, I was freezing cold myself, my fingers were numb, but I didn’t stop rubbing the heat on to this man’s body. Hours and hours went by this way. Finally, night passed, morning came, and the sun began to shine. There was some warmth in the cabin, and then I looked around the car to see some of the other Jews in the car. To my horror, all I could see were frozen bodies, and all I could hear was a deathly silence.

Nobody else in that cabin made it through the night – they died from the frost. Only two people survived: the old man and me… The old man survived because somebody kept him warm; I survived because I was warming somebody else..."

"Let me tell you the secret of Judaism. When you warm other people's hearts, you remain warm yourself. When you seek to support, encourage and inspire others; then you discover support, encouragement and inspiration in your own life as well. That, my friends, is Judaism 101."

3 Things

Never underestimate the power of a smile. Add a thumbs up. You're a powerhouse. Now add your mantra. Tell yourself and the world, "I can beat this." Believe it. Live it. Works!

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LIFESAVING STRATEGY: Finding Strength

I'm in love with Brad Fountain. Not romantically, of course. Something better. He's one of my heroes and he gives me strength. I will never bike 112 miles, run 26.2 miles, or swim in bad ocean currents for 1 hour 55 minutes. All in ONE DAY. But the MENTAL STRENGTH it takes to bike with needles in your feet, take off your shoes and ride barefoot with your shoes underneath...against a strong headwind, run farther than most people drive in a day, and then conquer ocean dangers...THAT'S COURAGE. And IRON-WILLED DETERMINATION.
 
I cannot be an IRONMAN. Or WOMAN. Not technically, of course. Something better. I'll fight beyond my limits. I'll push to learn to ride a bike again after falling off twice. I'll train to run a half. I'll swim, even when a PT calls the shots, I'll endure. All these things are small victories, my personal IRONWOMAN routine, but never all on the same day. That would almost kill me. I'm not THAT strong.

Because I have IRONMAN heroes like Steve Dembo, I've become an IRONWOMAN. Not exactly, of course. Something better. Like the Ironman Contest, cancer pits you against yourself. It tests you. Every.day. It forces you to find something inside that pushes you past the impossible. And in the process through pain and torture, physical and mental, you find strength. And you leap forward. Because your everyday heroes inspire you. Everything is possible. It's that simple.

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LIFESAVING STRATEGY: Finding Normal

Cancer robs you of your dignity. Not all at once. So you need to cultivate mindful awareness. Of your body. Inside.Out. Not looking at what isn't but what is. Realizing your set point within your journey. Celebrating what is, even tiny pieces. Parade them. Like learning to walk again in heels, leaning on my llama. A month later, no tether.

Living with cancer is a series of celebrations. Making memories of moments. And soon enough, you realize you are fighting back. Finding strength in the small. And one day, despite where you have been or what lies ahead, you kick in, Finding.Normal. It shapeshifts, different daily. But each gain gets you closer to the life you had.

And with the help of a true friend, Meg Blue Griffin, I finally got my life back and found normal running a 5K with her, my cheerleader.mentor.coach. A month ago. I'M BACK. 

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LIFESAVING TRANSPLANTS: No Pain, Great Gain. No Lies.

To get to the transplant stage, your cancer needs to be in control. Not necessarily completely gone, but close. Wipeout chemo will do the rest. Worst.ever. Exhausts, debilitates. Takes you to the brink. When your body is "clean," your cells are harvested. Frozen. Saved. Several days later, bombardier chemo again. Short wait. Your cells are returned. Hospitalization for a month or until your levels return. Complications interrupted and extended the time frame three months because of surgeries to save my finger. Since you cannot receive chemo with an open wound, we had to wait for a nail to regrow.

I remember during the harvest chemo thinking this is what dying must feel like. I am not afraid of death; I grew up in a funeral home around the corner from a beautiful historic cemetery. So I'm not skittish about such things. But this chemo does take you to the edge. Then brings you back. To go through this chemo again in 8 days, after 2.5 years of chemo before--not sure I would have made it. But the delays for surgery were as lifesaving as getting my transplant.
Without a doubt, I would do this again. May even have to. Your transplant statistically should "work" for five years. Most last for life. At my age, I may not ever need that second batch they harvested (they always pull enough for two transplants in case the first doesn't "take"). But if need be, I'm game. After all, it saved my life and I am very grateful.
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First image is how they package your cells, in small batches. They are thawed just barely, enough to push through this tubing. I took pictures during the process.

LIFESAVING BIOPSIES: Fear No Needles

Instead of doing the #tbgratitudechallenge for 30 days, I decided to share what I learned during my cancer journey. Payback. Trying to show my gratitude to all of you in a different way. And who knows, it just might save a life.

LIFESAVING BIOPSIES: Fear No Needles

Blood can detect many things, but in my case, when chemotherapy was failing me, we turned to a core biopsy. While you are awake but numbed (lidocaine), a needle probe extracts tissue. That determined I now had a second cancer, Diffuse Large B-Cell Lymphoma, a killer cancer. Aggressive, fast growing. Fatal if not defeated. Without the core biopsy, I would not.be.typing.this.
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What They Didn't Tell Me About Cancer

It wasn't a secret.
It  just didn't register.
It was the hardest part of the journey.

R.E.C.O.V.E.R.Y.

In--and of--itself, recovery is a blessing. You made it. Celebrate. But the way back is far harder, or at least it was for me. I never quit, but I remember so many setbacks.

It's all about pacing yourself. I never learned that. When you fly at life full tilt, it's hard to pull back. Cancer pulls you back, never down, but recovery teases you with a level of wellness you want -- but it's still a "not yet."

A year later and I think I finally understand. Limits are not a bad thing, just a new thing for me. I'm getting there with your support and prayers. Without you, a black hole. With you, life bursting with joy, possibilities, happiness. Life is so good!

I was not supposed to live.

BEATING A TRIPLE THREAT

I was not supposed to live. 

In April, 2012, my Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma needed treatment, but nothing worked. By the second core biopsy in October, 2012, we learned my blood cancer transformed to Diffuse Large B-Cell Lymphoma (DLBCL), an aggressive cancer, terminal if not defeated. Time is not your friend with DLBCL. Nothing worked until the 7th chemo cocktail in January, 2013, when my clock was ticking loudly, and believe me after all the salvage chemo I had, this effort was a shot in the dark, I think. It worked.

The problem with things not working had to do with an uncommon c-myc oncogene, a pathogen in my body that enables rapid cell growth. NOT good for someone with an aggressive cancer. My lymph nodes under my arms were literally softball size. Scary. So, I have two B-cell cancers in my body which is just bad luck, plus the c-myc oncogene. A triple threat.

I think if I can beat cancer, almost anyone can, given you do not get an always-terminal cancer diagnosis. How did I do it so far. YOU! Without you and your daily support, your "likes" and your comments (I treasure them) and your PRAYERS, (would be lost without them), and gifts (visits, card showers, and thoughtful things, soul food for a cancer fighter), it would have been a hard haul. YOU make the difference EVERY DAY. Early on, I faced how much time I would have if nothing worked, and what death would look like. And then I lived. I am one determined person who always believed I would be cured and given some more time, and I have great plans to do good with that time, God willing. God bless all of you for helping me everyday on my journey to wellness. I love you all! YOU keep me strong.

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Originally posted to Facebook as BEATING A TRIPLE THREAT on March 16, 2013. It received to date the most likes and comments of anything I have ever posted, anywhere. I am venturing into blogging again and wanted this to be my "first" post on my blog, After Cancer. I am still grateful to all of you for giving me the gift of life.

Sharing My REIKI Story

Allie and RJ at neighbor's farm

Although I have experience with yoga and mediation, my introduction to reiki began with my cancer journey to wellness at the Hospital of the University of Pennsylvania, in the Abramson Cancer at the Perelman Center for Advanced Medicine in April 2012. At the onset of my first protocol to treat Non-Hodgkins Follicular Lymphoma, I was asked it I were interested in meeting with a reiki master. My history of openness to and success with stress reduction using alternative healing practices made me a natural to try reiki. I continue to seek reiki sessions during my chemotherapy cycles, and I have always had significant benefit. 

But on admittance to HUP for a fourth (salvage) option with RICE and a potential Stem Cell Transplant to defeat NHL's transformation to Diffuse Large B-Cell Lymphoma, reiki also transformed with the appearance of a new reiki master, Vincent Gilhool. My first session (12-11-12) transported me with physical sensations heretofore unknown. I always feel a lift, as if my body floats, but yesterday it contained a gentle rocking sensation, in suspension. All parts of my body experience the sensation of interaction with the energy force, creating an alternating pressure and lightness of being. Mentally, I always participate in aspects of a journey to another place, and they are as varied as the climate. Going into a session, I have no preconceived notions of what I desire or expect. I just willingly suspend my disbelief and enter, at one with the mind-body connection. Yesterday, my upper BP number dropped from 156 to 115 after reiki. I returned with an inexplicable sense of quietude within and energy outside. Definitely oxymoronic, but definitely what happens. 

Pole Dancing at University of PA Hospital

Mr. Gilhool said that my benefit level is both high and unusual, so what I describe, albeit far-fetched sounding, is simply my story. I should add that in 1980 I underwent thyroid needle biopsies, a procedure that requires anesthesia. I opted for meditation and brought Dr. Jan Fergus with me to "bring me back." My biopsies were done successfully, and the physician later contacted me to discuss the process and benefits of my experience. 

Today (12-12-12), another transformative session. I felt like the healing hands of God were reaching out to me. It began with my eye, which was irritated, uncomfortable, a likely chemo-related side effect. I could feel the pull of the eye without it moving, and sensed the irritant slowly removed. My experiences are always very visually colorful, but today, a whiteness enveloped my inner being, and as Mr. Gilhool moved toward my Smart Port and chest (another unusual aspect was sensing his presence; I usually disconnect from my reiki master during a session), I saw thin black laminate shards of edgy irregular shapes move from my chest into the white light, adding shades of grey. Metaphorically, you could make a case for a cancer metaphor, but on the level of being inside the moment, it felt as if a higher power was guiding healing hands, bringing me to wellness. 

Friends make all the difference in beating back cancer!

If the RICE regimen works, I will give much credit to my oncology team, Dr. Sunita Nasta, Annie Berkowitz, Bernadette along with Dorethea, their secretary. And I will laud the UPenn Medicine teams on Rhoads 7, 6 and 3, which like all of Penn Medicine, is second to none. But I will always also believe that the day the hands of God reached inward was the true beginning of my journey to wellness. Time will tell. 

A Postscript:
RICE did work, and for about 2 weeks my tumors had virtually disappeared. Then, unfortunately, they found an escape mechanism and returned. I am currently undergoing treatment with an off-market use of Gemcitabine and Oxaliplatin. I remain totally optimistic that this regimen will work and I continue to receive amazing benefit from reiki sessions. 

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Beating NHL: The Big Four

Whether you're chasing the race for Super Bowl XLVII, in a gripping fight for academic honors, prosperity, or just dealing with the vicissitudes of daily life, you cannot win without attitude, a game plan with a backup, and cheerleaders. And a sprinkling of luck. Wherever we land in life, we're all fighting for that Superdome victory.

My fight is cancer, my Superdome--Penn Medicine (HUP), my battleground--daily life, beating NHL one day at a time. With an stadium of followers, I am frequently asked how I rebound after being hit with a series of defeats. Like any athlete, I just get back in the game, fight harder, stay tough. And I have the luck of God's presence in my life. Here's my game plan.

People who know me, have worked with me, and my BBFs will tell you I was born with attitude. Although that has not always bespoken a compliment, I am grateful for my OCD attitude because it's a lifesaver. The mind-body connection is strong, and I believe relentless determination is pivotal to winning, whatever the endgame. Staying power--positive beyond infinity--is the key to living mindfully. No scientific evidence exists to prove that attitude can defeat cancer; what it can do is create a lifestyle change, defeating stress and myopia.

Beautiful but DEADLY NHL Cell

Yesterday I began my 5th regimen to beat my cancer, but my tumors are smarter than the drugs and keep finding escape mechanism to regrow the cancer cells after the chemo temporarily wins the battle. So, do I lose the war? Not unless it's God will. And yes, I'm not politically correct where God is concerned; you may call it fate, karma, or something else, but 12 years of Catholic school reminds me that prayer might bend God's will, but will not alter His plan. So, on this one, either way it's a win-win.

Beating NHL with the Best in the Nation

Thumbs Up for the BEST Staff & Meticulous Care

My plan is victory over cancer. To achieve that goal, I began with a serious research initiative, vetting 9 different cancer wellness providers by creating a spreadsheet with rigorous criteria. Fortunately, I did not need to consider geography. I did, however, consider ranking of institutions, clinical research trials, grants awarded, outreach via social media and conferences, access at multiple levels, staff, including support staff, facility appeal and cleanliness, physicians credentials (publications, conferences, awards, grants acquired, field trial initiatives and participation, evaluations), equipment, and overall, how much the institution of my choice was an aggressive leader in its field. And very importantly, how did my future selection support my cancer, which is not a celebrity cancer. I always and forever want the very best; my life is worth PennMedicine Health Systems. Never overlook support staff; they are the backbone of an institution, and I can attest that I have found the very best. As a backup plan, I have considered the Gerson InstituteTherapy, and continue to use alternative therapies like reiki, meditation, yoga, mindful living, and healthy eating with juicing raw foods.

When it comes to a support system, beginning with my husband and friends, I have an army of supporters, and some of the very best are my Facebook friends I haven't even met F2F. People encourage me every day with comments, cards both digital and hard copy, PMs, phone calls, texting, and emails. I've been the recipient of thoughtful creative gifts from friends and fellowship groups, and each one has a special meaning to me. Without cheerleaders, I would find it difficult to move past some of the setbacks I've encountered, but after each failed protocol, my friends encouraged me enthusiastically. Cheerleading makes a difference in my mindset and my wellness.

If I could offer any advice, it would be 4 simple things:

1. Research and find an institution and support network that is best for you. Online and personal advice is a good way to begin, but visit your potential sites when you narrow them down and get a sense of the pulse of the facility and its people. All the people. Best for me is not necessarily best for you. If you feel that you are safely landed when you select your site, your experience will be much better.
2. Maintain a sense of humor--it's healthy.
3. Help others--because it helps you too.
4. Explore alternative options for de-stressing yourself and your caregiver(s).

Although this post is geared to cancer, the concepts work for just about anything. Happy, Healthy New Year.

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